Thursday, July 10, 2008

Back in the Saddle Again


I know I've been quiet lately, but I'm actually doing quite well. I've been avoiding the blogging world for the last week or so because I'm desperately trying to feel "normal" and not dwell on my infertility and/or the fact that I am childless. Instead, I've been spending lots of quality time with my amazing friends and my unbelievably wonderful husband and have been trying desperately to focus on all the blessings in my life.

So yesterday was our wedding anniversary, and we had an incredible "date" last night. SM and I discussed the fact that we love each other more now than the day we married. As much as infertility bites the big one, going through this together has brought us closer. I realize that I have a husband who loves and supports me unconditionally (even if I am profoundly broken), and that means the world to me.

And now for some good baby news . . .


I am officially hopping back in the IVF saddle! We met with our RE on Monday and he agreed to let us try another IVF cycle in August. We've always used antagonist protocols in the past, so we're going to try a microdose flare protocol this time. Fingers crossed that our luck finally turns around! I am so tired of being on the "bad end" of every freakin' statistic.

I hope everyone is doing well. I promise to get to that Pierce Brosnan story soon. ;)

104 comments:

Lost in Space said...

I am so happy to see you writing again and thrilled to read that you are going to go for it again with another IVF. I hope the protocol change is just what you need.

I am glad to hear you are doing well too. You have been in my thoughts and prayers. (hugs)

Congrats on your newly acquired paper pregnancy status!! Any little one will be lucky to call you "mom". (:

Joanna said...

Glad to see you back around. I know what you mean about taking a break from the bogging world. I did that last time our FET failed. So no worries!

I am glad to see you get back in the saddle. IVF takes alot out of a person. Jsut be sure to take care of yourself.

And "Paper Pregnant"....Woo Hoo!

Michelle said...

Happy anniversary! July is a great anniversary month (I'm not biased or anything..) :) I hope that next month's IVF brings great results, and can't wait to see how your adoption story unfolds!

Lost in Space said...

Hey, I have something for you on my blog. Stop by.

msl said...

Hi DC, Nice to see you posting again!
Congrats on being 'paper pregnant'! I hope the protocol change turns out to be the lucky charm!!

luna said...

happy anniversary! and congrats on moving along the ethiopia paperwork!

Bugged said...

Wishing you all the best on your journey ahead.

May love and hope abound, and may we soon hear of REALLY REALLY good news, either in the form of two lines, or a flight ticket from you know where to you know where.

oh2btigger said...

Happy anniversary!

Good luck with both the IVF and adoption process! How exciting!!!

Just Me. said...

Hey sweetie! Welcome back! I was a bit worried for you but I figured you'd need your space.

I am so so happy that you're paper pregnant! that's awesome news!!!!!

Jill said...

Happy Anniversary! I wondered where you went :) I'm loving that t-shirt! Adoption is the new Pregnant... how cute is that! Congrats on going forward with IVF, and a double congrats on being Paper Pregnant :)

Craig & Cindy said...

Of course, I'm glad you added me to your roll!

It's been very interesting reading your journey and ups and downs. I'm sorry to hear the bad news, but such great news yet about your adoption from Ethiopia as well! I wish you all the best and love and I just have a great feeling that you having a beautiful family is yet to be.

BTW, what Pierce Brosnan story? Don't tell me you got to meet him, I'd be uber jealous...!

Cindy

Away2me (Deanna) said...

Wow how excited to be moving forward with both your next IVF cycle and your adoption. I have heard wonderful things about Ethiopian adoption, as well as Korean adoption.

Glad you are enjoying your husband and had a great anniversary. I know IF has made my husband and I closer.

Duck said...

Congrats on the good news on the IVF and the adoption! Babies coming from all directions I hope.

korechronicles said...

Glad to hear you have had lots of love and support from the people that matter. Wishing you luck with the next stages of both IVF and adoption.

Trace said...

According to adoption agencies Ethiopia is VERY fast! That's great about your Lupus. I'm a little (ok a lot) worried about my MS being an issue if we opt for international. If it is we'll go for domestic.

Good luck w/your IVF. I'm also gearing up for and August retrieval.

If I don't get pregnant? We'll be apply to domestic agencies as we pursue ART. If I do get pregnant and we have a boy, I'd like to adopt a girl internationally. How's that for a plan....all my bases covered, lol.

Mrs. Spit said...

That sounds wonderful!!

Betty M said...

Go you! Very glap to see the lupus is not an issue - that is as it should be.

MamaSoon said...

Hi there! So nice to hear from you. And you sound great. A protocol change can be just the trick. I thought I was going to be doing that one too after my two antagonist cycles.

And congrats on your paper pregnancy. I am so very happy for you!

SAHW said...

I'm glad you had such a lovely anniversary with your DH. I am impressed you are working on the adoption and IVF at the same time, good for you. I hope the process for both are expedited, and you bring home one (or more!) babies soon. :)

PJ said...

I literally just said "oh, yay!" out loud when I read that you were doing the lupron flare! They just switched me over to that, and I am excited about it. See my last post.

That's so exciting about the adoption! I'm hoping that both the IVF and the adoption work out for you, and that your home is filled with the pitter-patter of children. Best of wishes!

beautycourage said...

I'm so happy to hear that you are trying again, and that the adoption process is moving forward.

I have a question for you for when you have time-- how you would recommend I start learning about Ethiopian adoption? We have been thinking domestic due to time issues, but our hearts are in Africa, I think. I'd love to learn more but am unsure where to start. Thanks! -Dot

Aunt Becky said...

I love the idea of "paper pregnant."

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

So glad you are back in the saddle!

Have missed you, but knew you probably needed some time to get refocused!

Happy Anniversary to you and SM...he sounds like an amazing guy!

Good news on both the IVF and the adoption.....I am so excited for you!

Lisa

Samantha said...

I'm glad to know you are doing okay. Sometimes a break from the IF world can be really helpful.

But more than that, I'm so excited that your plans are going through with your adoption from Ethiopia. Great opportunities abound!

JamieD said...

It sounds like you had an amazing week! Happy anniversary to you both!

It must feel so good to have made decisions regarding IVF and to have your "Paper Pregnancy" progressing nicely. I didn't know all that information about Ethiopian adoption, it is very interesting. I hope your 6-9 months will progress quickly!

Nit said...

Sooooo glad your back :)

Happy Anniversary :)

I am also glad to hear that you will be starting another IVF cycle soon...I hope this times the charm!

And of course, congrats on being "paper pregnant"! I really do admire you and your H's willingness to adopt a baby from Ethiopia! :)

Sarah said...

hi! i've been reading your blog for the last 2 weeks...i found out i have lupus a few weeks ago. i was wondering if you could email me-i'd love to ask you some lupus questions! like, do you ever get the brown spots on your face? this just came up and i do have an appt with a dermatologist next week...but wondered if you had any suggestions. we're also going to adopt but haven't filled out any papers quite yet. i have two bio. daughters but lost a son at 14 weeks pregnant this past february. i am so sorry for your infertility problems. it's all so darn hard sometimes! anyway, i'd love to correspond with you and also ask what agency you're using.
thanks!
sarah
grace2lilly@gmail.com

Wendy said...

I wanted to say hi. I saw your blog on lost in space's blog. That's great that you are able to do IVf again - good luck. I will be doing the same protocol if we do IVF #3 in August.

BTW, congrats on your adoption, too! Friends of mine adopted from Ethiopia last year...this is their blog if you are interested:

http://jb-mckinney.blogspot.com/

Rebecca said...

Glad to see you. Thanks for the adoption, IVF, and "other" update. :)

Psych Post Doc said...

Happy Anniversary.

I am so glad you've been able to surround yourself with those who love and support you.

I am also so glad to hear that adoption plans are moving forward. It's good to hear from you.

Lisa said...

Good for you! I've been down both of your paths...infertility and adoption...and guess what...I have a bio son and a daughter from China! Good things are coming your way. I just found your blog through Lisa's Half Gaelic. You have such a GREAT attitude about everything you are going through. I am so impressed! What an exciting time in your life!!!!

Meghan said...

This is the first time I've visited your blog. I'm adopting from Ethiopia too. I wanted to trade questions - can I email you sometime?
My blog is: growingafamily.wordpress.com
My email address is on the "About" page.
Hope to hear from you!

Io said...

Darling, I'm glad you're back in the saddle. Or stirrups. Or...hm. I need something for adoption...
Ah well, I am excited that the adoption stuff is moving forward regardless of IVF stuff! You've damn near convinced me *I* need to go the Ethiopian adoption route...

peg said...

Hi! I wanted to say that I just found you and it seems to me tha you and I are in very similar situations!! I'm about to turn 34 tomorrow and have Lupus also. I've done two fresh IVF with no luck trying to have our first child. I can't wait to read about your journey with ARTS and the adoption process!! Congrats on getting the paper work done!

Peg

Geohde said...

Congrats on the paper-pregnant status, that's wonderful!!!

J

Blog Shmog said...

that's so wonderful that the adoption is moving along! and also that you are going for it again with ivf!

Amanda said...

I am so excited for you on both baby fronts! It sounds like y'all have made a wise decision by choosing to adopt from a country with a good foster system in place. Sending lots of sticky dust your way :)

Deb said...

good to see you back again. congrats on all the good news!

andrea said...

so gald things are going well with your adoption process and you are trying a new IVF protocol - i hope it brings you success, i will definatly be checking :)

and happy anniversary!!!!

Rebeccah said...

Congratulations on your paper pregnancy!! I know how much work it is to get to that step. I admire you for continuing IVF in the meantime. Wishing you well on your next cycle!

AlmostMrsJoyner said...

Yay for IVF and super big YAY for being paper pregnant!! Im glad to see you back..You were sorely missed!!

Hope2morrow said...

Talk about exciting! Wow! All this is great news, and I am incredibly hopeful for you!

Heather & Adam said...

Congrats on both! How exciting!
The trip to Ethiopia is amazing, and I can't wait to hear about your journey...both of them!

peesticksandstones said...

What an awesome post! Happy anniversary to you and your husband.

Those are many of the reasons Ethiopia appeals to us, too. I was actually pretty saddened to see how taking antidepressants disqualifies you from adopting in so many countries (I believe Korea won't even let you if you've been in therapy). But Ethiopia seems welcoming, and that makes me happy.

Best of luck to ya'll as things proceed. I very much look forward to updates!

Heather said...

Happy anniversary!!!!

And congrats on both the adoption and the upcoming IVF cycle. Lots of luck on both!!!

megan said...

I always say infertility is the best and worst thing that has ever happend to me... I really did bring me an Mike closer together. He was my rock during all my IF treatments.

I am glad to hear from you!

Congrats on the paper pregnancy!!! The paperwork gets overwhelming at times but at least there is a baby at the end of this! Thats what I tell myself when I get overwhelmed!

Pamela Jeanne said...

Things move mighty fast in your world...so good to read all of the promising news!

A belated Happy Anniversary!

trish said...

I'm so excited about you adopting a child from Ethiopia! I can't wait to read more about that. :D

Amber said...

HI, I took a break as well. Just now catching up. Wow, another IVF...good for you. I've done micro-flare in the past and will do antagonist this tie. Trade ya' protocols!

La La said...

Exciting news in both the adoption and IVF areas! Woohooo! Best of luck to you in both.

LFA said...

Congrats to you both!! Sending positive vibes your way!

Wick

Rachel said...

I stumbled upon you and to be honest, I'm amazed. My father-in-law and sister-in-law both have lupus and it has always been considered a "death" sentence in the family. My SIL doesn't want to try to get pregnant because her parents told her she would die if she did. I am trying to learn more about the disease so that I know what is true and what is exaggerated. I am happy to find a place that I can learn more and see a more positive view on life with lupus.

Congrats on getting paper pregnant!

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

Just checking in....hope everything is A OK!

We got back yesterday and I am just trying to catch up!

Hope you had a great weekend!

Lisa

alicia said...

wow that is soo great! happy anniversary too! IVF and adoption, so awesome, we are doing IUI and adoption, its fun hey! ha ha, keeps me busy I guess! Can't wait to hear more about your progress!

Io said...

Lady, I hope everything is going well with you.

Juicy said...

SWEEEEEET!! I am so happy for everything you've got going on! Your relationship with your husband sounds wonderful, I'm glad this IF crap didn't rip you apart or make you bitter and angry at each other, you guys sound like you were meant for each other. :)

Lots of luck on the next IVF cycle and on the paper pregnancy!!!

Baby Step said...

Hi, and welcome back. Very excited about your adoption and upcoming IVF! I have been MIA a bit too, just BLAH, you know? I drank twice my weight in alcohol this weekend. :-)

Liesl said...

Great news on the adoption front, as well as your deciding to try again with the IVF.

Sending prayers your way!

Liesl

Amanda said...

DC, you've been gone too long! Hope everything is okay......

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

Where have you been? I hope that everything is OK....

Just checking in on my bloggy friend!

Lisa

Lost in Space said...

Hope you are doing okay and just keeping busy. I've been thinking about you. (hugs)

I'm also dying to hear your Pierce Brosnan story. I saw Mamma Mia on Saturday and he made the show for me. LOL.

The Angry IF said...

Hey Lupus, where did you go?

Hope2morrow said...

You still here? Just wanted to see how things are going and check in on you! It's been three weeks, and we're anxious to see how you are doing, friend!

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

Hey DC....wondering if you have decided to leave the land of blogger on us. Have been thinking about you...hope that everything is OK...if you get a minute, please at least send me an email....it is attached to my profile!

Hope all is well!

Lisa

Meg said...

Just checking in to say I hope everything is going well.

chronic chick said...

Hi there thanks for your visit. Good luck on the IVF.

www.chronicchicktalk.com

(my active site.)

Just Me. said...

Hey there. I hope you're doing ok. Been checking in on you to see how you're going.

((((hugs))))

passingwindows said...

Good luck! I am also trying a microflare protocol this time (going to see my RE on Tuesday). Crossing my fingers hard that it works for us both.

Nit said...

Was just thinking about ya! Hope all is well...miss you :)

Shauna said...

checking in...how are you?

Hope said...

Hope you are doing ok, miss your posts...

Hope

Io said...

Loopy Lu, I miss yooooouuuu...

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

I hope that you are OK....I pop over here almost daily, hoping to see something from you!!

Know that you are missed and we hope that you come back soon!

Lisa

Rebecca said...

Hi, DC... just popping over to say "hi." We miss you.

Sandra said...

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Good luck with everything.
Sandra

Alyson & Ford said...

Happy Anniversary (very late!).
Hope you are doing well.... It is almost September and we would love to hear from you.
Take care of yourself. Many blessings to all your family.

Alyson

Amanda said...

I'm worried about you! Can you let us all know that you are okay? Even if you're not in a bloggy-kind-of-place. Just drop us a line so we know if you're all right?

Hope said...

Hope September brings the beginning of fall color and even though the leaves will fall and Winter will come, winter is a step towards spring when the flowers overwhelm us with their color and scents.

We miss you, understand your distance though I think.

Jodi said...

Hope you are doing ok!

Pepper said...

Hey! Where you be at? :-)

Hope all is well.

xo

Geohde said...

Are you still blogging lovely lady? Enquiring minds have been wondering about you....

J

InfertileMadWoman said...

Hey sweetie.... checking in on you... getting a lot worried!!!!!! Please let us know you are ok!!!!

Rachel said...

Hey - I have you added to my Reader but now I'm concerned that you haven't posted in so long...are you okay? Hope you are healthy and happy...

Parenthood For Me said...

Hello-
I am an adoptive mom who rode the infertility roller coaster for four years. I just started a not for profit called Parenthood for Me.
Our mission is to provide financial and emotional support to those starting families through adoption and medical intervention.
I am reaching out to the adoption and infertility community to spread the word. Please visit my website and sign up to be on our mailing list.
Also, if possible, pass the link on to your circle.

I appreciate the help.

http://www.parenthoodforme.org/

Sincerely,
Erica Walther Schlaefer

Soxy Deb said...

Hey loopy. It's been forever. I know you haven't updated in months, but I wanted to check in with you to see how you are.

Hope your well and having a nice holiday with your family.

momofonefornow said...

So, you haven't posted in a good long while. I hope all is well for you.

I am praying through my blogroll today and I will send up a special prayer for you!

Hope said...

keepin you in my prayers...((HUGS))

InfertileMadWoman said...

Sweetie, I hope all is well... I miss you!!

Hugs,
Rebel

Rebecca said...

Howdy! I was looking at a blog post of mine from May 2008. It happened to be the first post of mine you ever commented on.

Hope you're doing well...

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Elisabeth said...

Hello!

My name is Elisabeth, and I am an infertility / repeated pregnancy loss "veteran". You can read a little bit about me and my experiences in my (not very updated) blog: drhousewife.blogspot.com . I am completing a PhD in Counseling Psychology, and my dissertation is focused upon the impact of infertility on marriage. I believe strongly that there is a need for better support services for men and women who are undergoing IF diagnosis and treatment, and my hope is that this study will aid in the development of such services.

I am contacting you after stumbling across your blog. I am recruiting participants for my study, and wanted to invite you and your husband to take part. All that would be involved would be the completion of an online survey, that would take approximately 20 minutes. All couples who complete the surveys will receive a voucher good for a pair of free movie tickets at a Regal Cinemas.

Please let me know if you are interested by emailing me at UTInfertilityResearch@gmail.com . I have included the criteria for participation below.

Best of luck to you!
Elisabeth

Kelly said...

Hi! I just found your blog. I also have lupus. After losing 4 babies to miscarriage, one finally stuck (through much medical intervention) and she is now an awsome 6 year old. I also have six fantastic children through adoption. I wish you all the best in your journey!

Kelly
enlighteningadoption.blogspot.com

Kelly said...

Hi! I just found your blog. I also have lupus. After losing 4 babies to miscarriage, one finally stuck (through much medical intervention) and she is now an awsome 6 year old. I also have six fantastic children through adoption. I wish you all the best in your journey!

Kelly
enlighteningadoption.blogspot.com

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Joyce said...

Hello,

I have been diagnosed with lupus nephritis for five years now and am struggling with trying to wean off my meds in the hopes of getting pregnant. After getting so close to my goal I am having a really bad flare now and have been told that I may never be healthy enough to carry my own child. The hubby and I have always considered adoption and it is starting to look like what we will pursue first as soon as my health recovers. I know you haven't written in several years, not sure if you even still check this but I would really, really love to communicate with you about your experiences if you are open to it. I don't know anyone else in real life who struggles with these issues and am just looking for someone who understands. If you are still checking this and are open to it, please email me. Or any other lupies who may be reading this...I'd really appreciate it.

- Joyce
thewinglessone@gmail.com

Sistergirl said...

I will keep u in my prayers. A few of my friends with Lupus also and a hard time getting pregnant it took a few years..the flares knock things out of wack but its not impossible. There is nothing too hard for God so stay faithful, it will be in HIS timing. Just pray and trust that it will come to pass.
Starting saying "when I get pregnant, not if."

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