I awoke this morning to find SM frantically tugging on the sheets and thrusting his hands under my pillows. "My mouthguard!" he exclaimed. "I can't find it."
You see, SM suffers from bruxism (he grinds his teeth in his sleep). After a recent trip to the dentist, where he learned his enamel had been ground down to an unhealthy level, SM bought a mouthguard to wear at night. This morning, SM awoke to discover that his mouthguard was nowhere to be found.
As SM continued searching for the mouthguard, his level of panic rose. "I think I might have swallowed it! I could die!"
"You're not going to die," I groaned, as I covered my head with a pillow and tried to sleep through Mouthguard Madness '08. (I was exhausted, having laid awake staring at the ceiling until 4 a.m. this morning. Gotta' love insomnia.) Not surprisingly, I quickly fell back asleep, apparently unconcerned that SM may have ingested his mouthguard and was, in fact, going to die.
When queried via email later in the morning, SM informed me that the mouthguard had been located in a laundry basket a few feet from our bed. This doesn't surprise me in the least, as my husband does some really bizarre things in his sleep. (Look for more on SM's somnambulism in a later post.)
We are now entering the infertility TMI zone . . .
Those of your following my IF saga know that my March IVF resulted in a BFN (that's a "Big Fat Negative" pregnancy test, for anyone unfamiliar with infertility vernacular). So I was forced to sit out April as a rest cycle. In May, I was benched from IVF due to high FSH, low AFC (antral follicle count) and a non-active cyst.
I used OPKs (ovulation predictor kits) to chart my April & May cycles. Both months, I was never able to get a positive. Yesterday, on cycle day 19, I began spotting. I had a minor freak-out and emailed my RE's office with the following questions:
- Is it possible that the DHEA I'm taking could be messing with my cycle? I’m on a really low dose (25 mg / day).
- Is the lack of a positive OPK a really bad sign? Is it possible that I’m not ovulating??
- Is there a super-remote possibility that I could be pregnant? When I had my blood work done at the beginning of this month, we didn't include a beta. Plus, my period was much lighter than normal.
This morning, I took a HPT and it was negative. And the spotting has ceased. Then my RE (whom I adore) called and told me I could still be pregnant and the bleeding could have been implantation bleeding. If I don’t either start my period or get a positive ovulation test by next Friday, I will go in a week from Monday for an ultrasound and blood work to see what the heck's going on.
I just don't understand why my body is constantly playing tricks on me and giving me these little glimmers of hope that I could be pregnant. Logically, I know it would be practically impossible for me to become pregnant without having eight other people in the room (including my RE, a few nurses, and an embryologist thrown in for good measure). Is it ridiculous to believe that a miracle could happen and I could get pregnant naturally?
28 comments:
No, it's not! That's the first thing that popped into my mind after I read that you were spotting! Of course, I don't encourage you to adopt my unhealthy habit of seeing everything as leading to a possible pregnancy though.
It's very possible, and I hope it's true for you...but in the meantime, try not to think too too much about it (like I would lol).
That bitch Hope strikes again...
I am totally cracking up about your husband's near-death experience.
hey!!! thanks for visiting my blog! too funny about your hubby! sounds like mine - lol!! I am looking forward to reading a lot more of your blog in the future when I have time!!!! nice to "meet" you!
I thought about implantation bleeding too. Although I never had it with any of my pg - even the miscarriages. I hope you get that bfp! I have said before that the guesswork is enough to drive a girl to drink. Yet, there can be no drinking because, maybe, just maybe there is a baby to worry about. But in the same sentance maybe not! Ugh! I wish that there was a sure sign that was so obvious - like your belly button glows in the dark or your toe nails turn pink for a girl or blue for a boy! It would be nice and we could put those evil hpt companies out of business! Thanks for stopping by my blog! NCLM!
Thanks for stopping by my blog. It's not at all ridiculous to believe that you can get pregnant naturally. I hope that it turns out to be your miracle BFP!
so not ridiculous... just insanely frustrating!! crossing my fingers for you that's for sure!
and your husband and his mouthguard mishap - hilarious!
I know several women who've been those miracles. I don't think I'll be one of them - ever. But maybe. The mouthguard story is *hilarious* though. Thanks for the comment on my blog.
Hi there. Thanks for dropping by my place -- nice to "meet" you. First of all, I'll keep my fingers crossed that it is implantation bleeding, stranger things have happened in the IF world, no? Second, I laughed my A off reading about your husband's mouth guard -- I wear one too. I don't actually grind, I just clench. But it made me laugh trying to think what we must have done, because mine fits very tightly so I can't imagine how it would come out and land a few feet away! :)
I've got my fingers crossed that it's implantation spotting!!!!
The mouth guard story had me thinking of the billion times I picked through the garbage with my best friend in junior high--she was forever putting her retainer in a napkin and then losing the napkin (at lunchtime and what not)!!!
Do not give up hope....miracles do happen....anything is possible!
Cracking me up about the mouthguard! Sounds all too familiar to me, except in our bed it is a missing pacifier otherwise known as the Nu Nu! We can't get Sarah out of our bed, so she is pretty much there everynight and constantly loses the Nu Nu....she yells and my husband and I scramble....we have found it in the strangest places!
Have a great weekend!
Lisa
DC, one should never discount anything... How cool would it be though to find out that you can do it without 8 other people in the room after all? Radical ;)
My DH does weird stuff in his sleep, too. I always ignore him and tell him to go back to sleep, no matter what he says (such as "quick, the house is falling down." Um, hmmm, see you in the morning. . .).
The fun thing about infertility is that you ALWAYS have to expect the unexpected. Here's hoping you get that BFP when you're least expecting it!
My first thought was implantation bleeding too. However infentessimal it might seem, there is always a chance - so, let's hope it worked!
Loved the story about the mouthguard. That cracked me up.
No, it's not ridiculous at all. I know it's NOT funny, but your saying that you can't get pregnant without 8 other people in the room made me smile. And I mean that in a "you're a good writer" sort of way. :)
As for your husband's adventure, I can relate on some levels. Those mouth guards can call all sorts of madness. I have the strangest dreams when I wear mine.
Just stopping by from NaComLeaMo and wanted to wish you well on your journey
It's funny that you posted about bruxism, because I just googled that. I think I do that! Apparently it is very common. Stress much?
We are now doing a rest cycle this month (will IVF next month) and I am wondering if it is even worth buying the OPK and trying on our own. We probably should, because you never know.
I love your blog too! Thanks for commenting, I hadn't visited you yet and now I'm glad I have. I like all the pictures you put in your posts. It makes it fun to look at. :)
I hate when our bodies can't do what they're supposed to. Mine doesn't do the right things either sometimes, so I feel for you. I do hope you get a miracle, sounds like you deserve it.
Ok, I'm bookmarking you, so keep me entertained! ha ha.
Pg from having ess eee ex? Wow. Sometimes I forget most people get pg that way. :-)
**Fingers crossed ** for good news a week from Monday!
I'm sorry you are having to go through this.
Let me tell you. Miracles can happen. We were supposed ot be one of those couples who could only get pregnant with IVF with ICSI. Husband has a very very very low sperm count. i have PCOS. It was supposed to be impossible.
It happened. I know this doesn't make your situation any easier.. But don't give up hope. Easier said than done. I know!
((hugs))
oooooh! I have my fingers crossed for you!
I am afraid to post anything about your infertility struggles, for fear of winding up on your "1,000 Things NOT to say . . ." list, but I WILL say that I can't wait to razz Stud Muffin/Sex Machine!
The tricks our bodies play on us might be ridiculous, but hope never is.
You know its funny--I tend to forget that s-e-x can lead to babies. It's refreshing to remember that it can! Hoping for you, DC!
First of all, the story of your dh made me laugh--- I do that with my glasses at night!
As for your cycle... I sure hope you get your miracle :-)
OK, this is TOTALLY none of my business. I know everyone's body is differnet, yada yada yada, but PLEASE be really careful with that DHEA. It has the potential to really mess up a cycle, by tricking your body into not making certain compounds b/c it thinks it is getting enough via the pills, and so on. I know most people are NOT like me, but that stuff messed me up so I always just like to warn people to be careful. I took it on doc's recommendation that "it can't hurt" -- but it did.
OK, busybodyness over. Glad all turned out well with the mouthguard!!
I was laughing out loud, especially when you feel back to sleep! I hope the spotting is a good sign. Also, congrats on the adoption, I hope it all works out for you.
BYW - loved your 10 things people say list. Had me laughing and nodding my head. We had many of those same comments relayed to us - I think everyone who goes through IF does.
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